So I signed up for school, AGAIN!! I have been trying to go back off and on for years...to finally get my degree for Registered Nurse...I've been a Licensed Practical Nurse for 30+ years. The older I get, the less I worry about all the notebooks, papers, pens, highlighters and etc....just give me the book, or the link, or the website...so I can read, take the test and be done. I'm not wasting my money on all the "tools" and "particulars"...at this point, I've taken these classes so many times, it's really not necessary. I will never use them again, anyway...because once I'm done...I really AM DONE. Every time, I tell myself that I will not wait so long next time...because those pesky science classes expire every 5 years...and guess which ones I am having to take, AGAIN? Ugh!! But I have promised myself that this year is going to be "the year" that I finally get it all done...once and for all.

I suppose taking the classes is not the worst part...it's the cost of the books...books that I will never use again...even though I am taking the same classes again...of course...the books are "newer editions"; which means mine are not appropriate (the ones that I did hang on to). I usually wait until the first week of class to feel out the instructor...so I can see if I can get away with the "older" edition I have...after all, how much different can it be? Right? Well, my Anatomy class doesn't start until March...so I have time to decide whether or not I am going to try to skate by with my current book!! It's only been a few years since I took that class!! My last Microbiology class, however, was like 10 years ago...(according to the school)...so I have no idea where that book is...I believe I gave it to a co-worker who was taking that class...(I wonder if she still has it)!! I think trying to get all the books and supplies is more stressful than the actual class!! "Sheesh"!!

But...this is my year! I will get this done...this year! Stayed tuned!

I'm bringing  "MaggieRose" back!! This was a blog I started several years ago...to reflect the many moods and personalities of women. I wasn't real familiar with how the blogging thing worked, so it sort of faded into the background. 

Mainly, it was a way to express myself, whether it was "role playing" or simply just "venting" over the latest disappointments and frustrations; or sharing genuinely good thoughts. It was meant for other women to be able to read, relate and share, as well. 

As an example...when the Oscars or Golden Globes come on, I sometimes would dress up in something kind of cool or "retro", pour a glass of wine, and enjoy the show! Well, I would upload photos to Facebook or other social media sites...and soon realized that other woman I knew did the same thing!! It may seem silly to some, but it's just a fun way to let out that inner woman that likes to pretend, dream, or in some small way...share in the experience of the moment. 

The picture above was picked for a reason, too. When I see that image of the hat, sunglasses and dress with the water in the background...it makes me happy. It's a moment in time that generates thoughts and images of peace and calm. They say "a picture says a thousand words"...which is so true. The neat thing about it, is that those "thousand words" are different depending on whose perspective it's coming from. It's all about "what does this image mean to you"? Kind of unique to every individual. 

I have not had an opportunity in a long time to get together with a bunch of girlfriends for a theme party or good old fashioned "get together". I have fond memories of the few times I did...and they will remain special to me. So many of us want to...but just can't seem to plan it out with all the busy schedules and different life obligations. So here, I use this platform to maybe bring a little part of that to fruition. This will be for expression of the heart and soul...moments for those different personalities and moods to come to life. It ought to be fun. I hope others will join me!!

"Was there something in the air?...and is it leaving now?"

It seems that the last several weeks have been sort of strange with a lot of folks. Call it misfortune, bad luck, good times/bad times...challenging...whatever you like; but there definitely has been something weird going on. 

I am a very emotional being anyway, my zodiac, my personality, my nature...and I noticed a shift in the karma and good energy for a little while...didn't like it. It is the sort of "thing" you can't put your finger on...no logic to it, just "not right". Some people rely on the zodiac and tarot cards, or readings of one kind or another; others rely on prayer and faith; and still others rely on the barometric pressure with the tides rolling in and out. I believe they all tie in together...thus my very philosophical and very faceted outlook on life in general. After some time passes and the ship begins to right itself again...I can usually justify, or at least attempt to explain some of the confusion and chaos that has occurred. 

I have always believed that feelings and emotions are here for a reason...but it doesn't necessarily make it easier, it does however; help us understand how to sort things out and get ourselves together when we are going through the more difficult times emotionally. They signal something out of balance, for whatever reason...and trying to put it back into balance can be hard sometimes. What works for one person may not work for the next...call it "being human" I suppose. 

There is no particular reason for sharing this post, other than "just sharing"...sometimes when we relate to others, it helps us cope better and find that support to move forward as life does. I have written about similar topics before...here and there...but never on a regular basis. Healing and recharging comes with having an open mind, and realizing that there is nothing "wrong" with us...it is the complexity of our spirit, mind and body...all those chemicals, hormones, combined with those moods, emotions and feelings; it can get overwhelming...but it's what makes us amazing and incredible.

We can be victorious over the negative experiences with the tools that work for us...whatever they may be; music, friends, prayer, hobbies, exercise...I usually dabble in a little of all...depending on what my "mood" is! I try to remember that I cannot give my all, if I am depleted emotionally...it's just like a cell phone!...I have to recharge my battery once in awhile! 

We are there for our loved ones, our jobs, our friends and co-workers, life in general...but when time gets away from us, and we have not taken care of ourselves, we run out of gas and can't offer our fullest potential, or to the degree we normally do. It isn't selfish, it's actually common sense. We can't keep taking or giving without replacing some of what we use. Then when that "weird thing" does come along, we aren't fully recharged, and it takes a toll on us...we can't bounce back as quickly as before. 

I have learned to accept my uniqueness, my coping mechanisms...because I know what works for me. So when I wake up at 3 a.m. AGAIN!...I realize that it is just my own way of my body and mind trying to communicate with me...to tell me to get it in check...it seems to be the peak time for me, for whatever reason...when I am most receptive and contemplative; and I can figure things out more clearly. Perhaps it is because it is during the night when I am off...and things are quiet in general at home; it also has a little to do with my working night shift, I suppose...but for whatever reason it is, I have learned to accept it, and I actually look forward to those moments when I can heal my mind, spirit and soul. Once I obtain that feeling of satisfaction, I can tackle life again...and build on my strengths until the next obstacle comes my way! 

So be strong, be humble, and love your "human nature" for who you are. The world is waiting for you!!